random thoughts from venting, a poem

Yesterday I was venting about all the uproar with tax cuts and budget cuts and government program cuts, and this idea kinda grew out of that. It's just meant to be read for now....discuss if u will....here it goes, enjoy? *shrug*:

I’d like to have a no-holds-barred discussion

I am a brown-skinned United States-ian

I am called African American

Africa is a continent to which I have never been

And truthfully,

America is a couple of continents which I have never explored

United States is my country of origin

That is only united in theory

I suppose my country is quite hypocritical in its name

No, there is no civil war with guns

But we fight each other with money, stocks and bonds

We fight each other with racism, sexism, and classism, ammunition of hate

The only time we are united is in between bars of the ♪♫ 50 Niffty United States ♪♫

But go behind bars

You will find a different story

Lets raise the bar and see who can jump it or gets stuck in limbo

Maybe if we go to the bars

We can forget

And

Libations will be the lotus to make us all closer

If this is proven to drive somebody to drinking

Maybe one of ya’ll can go pass the bar to defend me

Or better yet prosecute me

For murdering with the truth

I’d rather be found guilty

Sweet Dreams, I Hold on to...Memories I Hold on to...

I feel bittersweet about graduating from Meredith College. I have made a lot of good memories here...some I don't care for and were awful, but I really do feel that all of my good days outweigh my bad days (yes I know this is cliche but it's how I feel.) Right now I just feel like I'm propelling towards the unknown and so for me that feels like a "no man's land," hence the song choice. I'm feeling so much right now I don't even know how to formulate them all into words. Most of them are good feelings...it's just so much.

I have a plan that I laid out for myself, but I don't know if that's going to happen. The fact of the matter is whatever God has planned for me is what is going to happen...or so I think. I have heard numerous stories from people who knew what God told them to do, yet they decided to do their own thing until they got so miserable from not being where they needed to be...blah blah blah, etc. I have been praying a lot--I just hate the unknown. As far as I know, I have been "delighting myself in the Lord," and I have A LOT of desires in my heart. It's pretty much a running list. I feel like there's so much that I want to do that what if it's too much...maybe I'm not being realistic. At the same time, if everyone abides by what is "logical" then nothing would get done or be invented b/c you would be operating off of preexisting rules waiting for another to prove otherwise....People say all the time "you can't have it all." I beg to differ--I am seeking out to have it all. this post prob made no sense whatsoever, but life's like that, makes no sense whatsoever sometimes...it is what it is.

one love,
kay rich