Kelly Clarkson - Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)

Building 429 - Listen To The Sound

An awesome Praise & Worship album!!

I bought the album Introducing the City Harmonic, The City Harmonic's freshman album, after I first heard this song Manifesto on a local christian radio station. I completely love every single song on this album. =) Even the booklet that accompanies the album is really good with statements about the stories and background behind the songs--it's really encouraging!

FIVE on the BLACK HAND SIDE

Sooooo, who started this? Was this a movement? Or was it always meant to be funny? Did it start with a thought such as, "Why we gotta use the white side to give fives? Why the black side gotta be neglected??"?? hmmmm I was first intrigued by Queen Latifah's rendition, but when I googled searched "how to give five on the black hand side," a movie came up in the search results. Let's observe:




UnknownMovies.com Commentary on Five on the Black Hand Side (1973) ^^^^ Pretty good commentary on "blaxploitation" and this movie. Educate yo'self!!!

Reflecting on "Crawling" by Linkin Park

Crawling lyrics

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear
Is never ending, controlling

I can't seem to find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence)
(I'm convinced that there's)
(Just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before so insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled
Itself upon me distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence)
(I'm convinced that there's)
(Just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before so insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real

There's something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
(Confusing what is real)
This lack of self control I fear
Is never ending, controlling
(Confusing what is real)

I am really feeling this song right now! I know the past should not matter--and it especially doesn't matter to God--but I feel like it is constantly in my face...reminding me of the person I used to be, who I never wanted to be, and I have this seemingly irrational fear of becoming the person I worked so hard at to change from...Plus I feel like I am dealing with too much pressure from everyone to succeed. It's not even that I have this fear of failure, I just hate the thought of disappointing people. People may try to mask it, but when you've disappointed someone, you can still see it in their eyes. I suppose I am still trying to figure myself out in this journey called life--and perhaps I will never understand myself, and that's okay, too because you never truly know what type of person you are until you are put to the flame up under some type of pressure.

Reflecting on "Monster" by Skillet

Romans 7:21-25 (New International Version)

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

I know we're all human and no one is perfect, but I feel like if people were to know the "real" me sometimes--the side of me that can be downright mean and somewhat nasty--people would think I were a monster.  People would perhaps not think of me as an evil one-eyed people-eater, yet I think they could see a side of me that they would never think could ever be there. I am not by any means saying that people put me on a pedestal; in fact, I constantly remind people I am far from perfect. Yet when conversations of the past do come up, most people always gasp and say, "You did what??? I don't believe you--you're lying!!!" I am not talking about Christians either, I mean everyone has that reaction: agnostic, atheist, Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist--you name it.

I actually find this happening quite hilarious, but at the same time I feel trapped because it makes me feel as though I can never tell anyone what I may possibly be struggling with at the moment. I tell God everything...I would just like to have a sounding board sometimes that I can actually see.  Not that people always give sound advice, and we're not to put our trust in them, yet everyone could use someone they can put their confidence in every once and a while.

These feelings are probably just a part of the season I am in currently--I mean everything is all gravy, but unless you're a schizoid, being alone--in terms of friendships--is tough.  I have friends; however I find myself being the sounding board more often times than not, and when I do have something I need to talk about, I never know the words to use--so just talking to God works out because I never have to try to explain things in the coherent way I have to with people--sometimes I don't even have to use words.  That's the beauty of God. Anywho, I am kind of just rambling now...

Kay Rich, out

Power of the Tongue Open Mic Night!!!! Each year it's such a blessing!!!! :)

My sister and I will be ministering through dance and spoken word respectively. Come out, lift the name of Jesus and speak life!!!

Inflow @ the Pour House

My homegurls Brit, Whit, & Hina went to go see Inflowential aka Inflow in concert at the Pour House.
They had special guests Blount Harvey and HaLo who was also fly. The main lead singer of Blount Harvey was looking kind of pissed because of some balding dude who was in charge of the sound, but other than that, everything was off the hook.
The energy, the show, the performance, just amazing. Brit and I had been plannin on the concert for a minute ever since we saw Inflow at NC State for Obama support,(I may have blogged about it earlier, way back when, I honestly don't remember.) Anywho, I just loved the band, the vibe, the soul--Inflow.

Kay Rich, out

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