Friday, January 21, 2011

FINALLY DONE grad school that is =)

Today I used UPS to mail off my supplementary materials to NYU, which means I am OFFICIALLY done with applications to graduate school. As mentioned 2 posts ago, I applied to NYU and GW; however, at the last minute I applied to Drexel. They sent me an email that waived the fee so I said what the hey, why not? It's free! So now I just W A I T.............................................................and wait. lol

While I was having another moment today where I was freaking out, I felt God reassuring me that everything is in His hands. Now, I'm pretty calm and at peace about it--besides I did my best. Regardless that my future at any of those schools is being decided by admissions based on my transcript, GRE scores, personal statement, recommendations, resume and digital portfolio, God knows me. Even if they don't know me, God knows what I want. I have been delighting myself in Him, and He's given me this desire. What I want to do now I cannot with a BA--I need an MA. PLUS *drum roll* I LOVE SCHOOL!!! Of course, we cannot be students forever, and the whole purpose of being such is to better ourselves and possibly the world in some sort of capacity.

Well I'm about to begin Friday festivities--but this blog post is NOT done........I just wanna get somethin FRESH upppppp, and let everyone know that we're waiting on my acceptance letters--which will come after the letters for an invitation for an interviewwwwww. (By "we" I mean family, friends, mentors, professors, former employers ie everyone who wants to see me succeed--THANK YOU & many thanks for waiting with me.) ((If it seems like you constantly ask if I have heard back yet--I PROMISE it will NOT get on my nerves, it just let's me know you care or ur curious or both))

Sooooo BACK to this entry!!! I am just proud of the fact that I have been trying my best and finishing the applications b/c some people don't even try. I don't want to be the person who wonders, "what if?" Also, so many of my ancestors who have gone before me and my grandparents who are still living didn't even have the opportunity to finish high school--so you best believe I am getting as much education as I can. Plus I can see myself with really long locks someday in a classroom at some university teaching undergraduate students. My sister said she pictures me as a professor with an African walking stick that I will acquire on one of my sabbaticals or something like that... (?) =) All I know is, I cannot wait for 05-08-2011 b/c graduating with a Bachelor's is a big deal in and of itself. Worst case scenario, in the event I do get rejected from everywhere, I'll look for a job. My "plan C" is AmeriCorps lol. However, according to everyone I talk to, they say, "You'll get in!" or, "If they don't let you, they're crazy!" or (my favorite actually lol) "Of course you'll get in--you're AMAZING!" Anywho, I am just babbling now....until next time ;)


Thursday, January 20, 2011


I thought you were God’s soldier,
but you ran a one-man-army.
I thought you were you praying for me,
but you were really preying on me.

The thing that hurt the most
is that you acted as if it never occurred.
A sincere, “I’m sorry,” probably could have helped.
Clearly, your morals have been blurred.

Had you been big enough
to admit who you really were and not who you portray,
things probably would have been different,
and I would have known for whom to really pray.

We cannot diminish the past,
and I still feel the pain.
However, I do not know where your heart now lies.
You may have genuinely changed.

I cannot even judge you;
I hope you come back to your senses.
Once you have Christ and then leave Him,
that is when true hell on earth commences.

I admit I used to positively hate you,
but the bitterness ate me up inside.
I refuse your control over me any longer.
God’s love is where I now reside.

Even though you caused
the hardest thing I have been through,
I searched and found in my heart
the strength to sincerely forgive you.